"Without you, I'd be too strong. Inflexible. Eventually, I'd break or the parts of me that you taught me not to be afraid of would fade." Why did it seem like Alec knew that from experience? When he was younger, he had hidden his sexuality and most of himself from the world and Magnus gave him a chance to find out who he was. But why did he know what it was like to live without being in a relationship without Magnus after those changes? If Magnus ever wanted him to leave...
Shying away from the thought and the hints in the back of his mind that it had happened, he focused on his husband instead.
Realizing something was wrong, he looked down at the Lightwood ring, trying to understand why Magnus might be unhappy with it. It was important to Shadowhunters, but maybe his husband had wanted some other symbol of their love. Maybe something brighter than plan silver etched with flames. Keeping his fingers wrapped around Magnus' hand, he tried to think of some answer that wouldn't hurt, then accidentally blurted out, "I don't care."
Flushing slightly, quickly began to speak before his words could hurt Magnus. "I didn't marry you so I could have runes or a ring. I married you because I loved you. I don't care about any of that. And you're not just any warlock. You're a High Warlock and my husband. If you want me to have something like that, you'll think of it or create it." Even if he didn't remember all the magic he'd seen Magnus use, Alec knew that he had an incredible gift.
His heart lurched painfully in his chest as Magnus looked up at him, feeling guilty for whatever had caused the hurt his husband felt. Alec wanted to apologize but knew this wasn't the place. "Of course." Carefully hiding his reaction, he gently pulled Magnus' hand from his shirt. There were so many things that he wanted to say. That runes and rings didn't matter. Intent was more important than any of those things, but he would have to wait to tell Magnus those things.
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Shying away from the thought and the hints in the back of his mind that it had happened, he focused on his husband instead.
Realizing something was wrong, he looked down at the Lightwood ring, trying to understand why Magnus might be unhappy with it. It was important to Shadowhunters, but maybe his husband had wanted some other symbol of their love. Maybe something brighter than plan silver etched with flames. Keeping his fingers wrapped around Magnus' hand, he tried to think of some answer that wouldn't hurt, then accidentally blurted out, "I don't care."
Flushing slightly, quickly began to speak before his words could hurt Magnus. "I didn't marry you so I could have runes or a ring. I married you because I loved you. I don't care about any of that. And you're not just any warlock. You're a High Warlock and my husband. If you want me to have something like that, you'll think of it or create it." Even if he didn't remember all the magic he'd seen Magnus use, Alec knew that he had an incredible gift.
His heart lurched painfully in his chest as Magnus looked up at him, feeling guilty for whatever had caused the hurt his husband felt. Alec wanted to apologize but knew this wasn't the place. "Of course." Carefully hiding his reaction, he gently pulled Magnus' hand from his shirt. There were so many things that he wanted to say. That runes and rings didn't matter. Intent was more important than any of those things, but he would have to wait to tell Magnus those things.